Sunday, September 28, 2014

Achievement Unlocked: Write a Novel!

So yesterday I wrote two words. Well, actually I wrote 4,446 words, which is actually a new daily record for me. But within those, I wrote two specific words: “The End.”

After just over a year of writing, and 112,956 words later, I finished the first draft of my first real novel. (Those who know recall that I wrote a novel in High School, but that was really just a 50,000 word inside joke)



The story is called Bloodlines, and it follows a man named Matthew Drake. He works for a private security firm, which is hired to protect a team of researchers who are investigating a plague in China. The plague has a ridiculously high mortality rate, and the survivors exhibit very strange behavior. While there, he also starts to encounter some questions about his own heritage.

So…yeah, the above blurb isn’t that great. But I’ve been busy working on the book, not so much on a blurb.



In the process of writing Bloodlines, I’ve learned a lot about writing. Looking at my first chapter, and my last, the progression of my prose is incredible. I am a far better writer now than I  was a year ago, and pumping out almost 200,000 words (I wrote a few short stories as well) was a big part of that.

I also have gained an incredible appreciation and sympathy for screenwriters, specifically regarding plot holes. Good crap, I have so many plot holes in my book that I’ll need to fix in revision. You could sail an entire U.S. carrier group through the plot holes in Bloodlines. Phew!

Juggling view points, writing a female character that is her own character, prose, pacing, engaging the senses, world building, and a lot of other things I still haven’t recognized yet. I’ve made progress in all of these.


I finished a first draft. What’s next? (I’ve had a few people ask)

I’m not going to try to get Bloodlines published at this point. It is still a very rough story, and my first novel, I’ve got a lot of revising, and a lot of learning to do. In fact, Bloodlines won’t be the first novel that I want to be published. It is a solid story, but not what I want as my debut.

Right now I’m planning a novel for NaNoWriMo. NaNoWriMo is an annual decentralized “event,” basically a challenge to write a 50,000 word novel during the month of November. So, I’m planning for that, and then I’ll write it, start to finish, in November.

After that, I am planning on taking Brandon Sanderson’s writing class during next semester (Fingers crossed.) The homework for that class is to write a 30,000 novella.

In addition to writing the novella next semester (I write fast) I’m going to do some revising of Bloodlines, and get started on my next novel, which will be a fantasy.

Then I’m going to write the sequel to Bloodlines.

Finally, after that I am going to write a fantasy novel, which I’ve given the working title of “Succession.” That will be the novel which I try to get published as my debut novel. If all goes well, I should finish that book early 2016, with a goal of being published by the end of that year.

So, finishing Bloodlines is a huge milestone and accomplishment for me, but I’ve still got a long way to go before I become a best-selling author.





Sunday, August 3, 2014

Last night I was talking with a few friends, and somehow we got on the topic of my writing. I started explaining one of my short stories, and someone expressed interest, and I ended up spending the next 45 minutes reading UEC Falcon. Three people ended up listening to the story, and although it was hard on my voice, it was really gratifying to experience people being interested in my writing.

It was almost as gratifying as the writing of UEC Falcon.

So I've been stewing on this story idea for several weeks. I had a core idea for the
 story: There is a military spaceship with only one engineer on board. The ship normally has a crew of hundreds, but it is just the one, and he can't remember what happened. This was an idea, but alone it wasn't enough for a story. I let the idea mull over in my head for a while, and work shopped it with my Writers Group. With their help, I got a few more scenes plotted out, developed an ending, and had a general overview of the story, but I still didn't feel ready to write it. There were missing pieces, and plot elements that didn't quite fit together.

So I continued to mull it over in my head. Then, on a Thursday or Friday, I was thinking about the story as I left work to get lunch, and as I was walking, pieces started falling into place until I had the entire story laid out before me. Everything fit together, it had a beginning, a middle, and an end, And I figured out how it would fit into the larger Nakt story line.

So I went home that evening, and typed up a scene-by-scene outline. Over that weekend and the next Monday/Tuesday I wrote a first draft of the story, clocking in a just over 7,000 words. Monday was the best part. I was recovering from a fever and so stayed home from work, I didn't feel sick, but I felt very fatigued. So after resting for a bit, I sat down to write. I wrote a scene, and then another, then decided to get to the scene after the next one. Two hours later, I had written just shy of 3,000 words. This was the most I've ever written in a single day.

The writing just flowed onto the screen. It was incredibly gratifying.


Friday, July 18, 2014

Revival

I haven't posted to this blog in a while.

Over this year (2014) I've become more serious about being a writer. I took a Creative Writing Lecture class from Brandon Sanderson this past winter semester, and I'm planning on doing his workshop class next winter semester. Plus, my main writer's group has become more regular in meeting, and better in critiquing. Along with all this, I'm trying to write 7,000 words a week.

It'll be several years, and a good number of no-so-great novel drafts before I become an actual accomplished author, but I want to get into good habits now that will help me reach that goal. Things such as writing every day, and maintaining a blog.

Another good habit to get into is accountability. So on those lines, here are the main writing projects I working on right now:



Bloodlines.
This is a SciFi/Thriller novel I'm working on. A mysterious plague breaks loose in several places around the world. The plague is lethal and spreading, and the survivors are exhibiting weird symptoms. Matthew Drake, a retired soldier who works for a private security firm, gets drawn in to these events.

I plan on this being the first book in a trilogy, but this isn't going to be the first book I try to get published. This book, and possibly its sequels are intended to be practice. I've written twelve chapters thus far, and I can already see ways that I am improving.

Nakt
This is going to be a series of SciFi short stories. The plan is for each one to stand on its own as a story, but for aspects of the stories to connect in an over arching plot. I don't know how it will work out, but I'm going to experiment. I've already written a first draft of one story, and I've outlined a second. I'd like to get a couple of these stories published, but again I'm not an awesome writer yet, so we'll see.

Succession
This one is a fantasy novel. I've got a few cool ideas that are coming together, but not a full story yet. I want this to be the novel I try to get published in a few years. In that vein, I'm not actually writing it yet. I'm working on world-building and plot-building. I also plan to write a few short stories, and maybe even a novella or two set in this world to help me explore it.



So those are the overarching projects I'm working on in my head. A bit more specifically:
Bloodlines, Draft 1:40%
Outpost 17-C, Draft 2:30%
UEC Falcon, Draft 1:10%


That is where I am right now, and where I am heading as a writer.



Sunday, July 8, 2012

Fading into Solace

By Xander Hacking

The Silence, but for wind,
Woven through the lonely trees.
The forest sleeps upon sharp cliffs,
Resolute, high and firm above the sea.

A single hollow cabin,           
Grasps the fading heat
Of a fire long-since lit.
Flames licking, falling to sleep.

Dawn has long risen.
Twilight soon descends
Hastened by the gray clouds,
Which yet withhold their rain.

This tapestry of Solace --
Though filled with scent and sound --
Leaves a mind alone
To face its own stirring depths.

-           -           -

Though the memory is of but a moment
The feelings are etched deep.
Her face is gone from recollection
(Was it ever even there?)

But her gleaming auburn hair:
Forever set in stone.
Her name escapes my thought,
No matter how I try.

The cloud and mist of wakefulness
Plunder much from my mind.
My heart cries she was important,
That she meant so much to me.

I remember, we were running,
Something, something, dark close behind.
I must keep her safe.
Give everything to protect her.

-           -           -

As now I stare unending
Where eternal waves meet slate sky,
I wish to know the answers,
Hidden, lost, stolen from my mind.
I am left with only questions,
Uncertain of her fate.
Did I keep her safe? Or did I fail?
The once sharp image blurs.
The memory feels so real. But is it?
Was she? 

Monday, February 20, 2012

Courage of The Captain

By Xander Hacking.

Dim the fires smolder,
Their tenders cold and hard.
The few still burning brightly,
Warm the broken, stooping men.

The field was green and peaceful,
But such seems ages past.
Littered with the fallen,
It sleeps now in dark and ash.

This is not the first day,
(We pray it be the last)
When our strength faltered,
And hope seems gone and past.

A figure emerges from the night,
Towards us huddled living.
His eyes are wet in mourning,
But bright with courage burning.

He puts his hand upon the shoulder,
Of every broken man.
We stand a little taller,
As we recall His Plan.

"We fight for something greater,
Than thrones and kings of man.
This day was a costly battle,
But we will rise again.
The path we tread 's not easy,
But Joy is ours come the end."

As our Captain parted,
His light lingered in our eyes.
Though our wounds still festered,
We no longer felt the pain.
Through the healing of our Master,
We are whole again.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

The Bridge to Nowhere

By Xander Hacking


While travelling one day,
Journeying on my way,
I passed an intriguing scene:
The bridging of a ravine.

On this side, no space was found
For buildings filled the ground.
But the land across was empty,
All march filled and swampy.

I approached the smiling foreman,
As he surveyed his work.
“You’re building quite a wonder,
And not a man is found to shirk”

“But you see my friend,
And I’m sorry if I’m frank,
But your bridge it leads to nowhere.
The land across is blank.”

“I see you’ve caught the vision
Of what we aim to do”
He responded with gusto,
Creating much ado.

“Aye we’re building this bridge to nowhere.
We’re building pretty fast.
We’ve used our best resources.
We’re building this to last.”

“But sir all that is pointless,
 Even if it stands through flood and rain,
It brings about no progress.
Sir, your bridge is vain.”

“Perhaps I spoke too quickly,
When I said you understood.
But with some explanation,
I do hope that you would.”

“So many are going nowhere
Countless throngs of men.
How else could they get there?
For here their journey would end.”


“Why would any cross this bridge?!
There is nothing for them to see!
Why, no one even notices this bridge,
Except for you and me.”

We parted our separate ways,
Both thinking the other a fool.
Much time passed before
I returned that way with things to do.

Imagine the shock that sight did bring,
That bridge filled with crowds.
All of them rushing, pushing, shoving,
To Cross,
            The Bridge,
                        To Nowhere.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Remember 9/11

In memory of the 2,977.

Ten Years Ago, we all woke up to a world radically different from what we were accustomed to. Children woke up, knowing that Daddy, or Mommy, would never walk through the front door again. Men and women looked at pictures of family, of friends, of colleagues, of brothers, sisters, mothers, and fathers, and through blurred eyes saw only memories, never to be made again.

American soldiers stationed around the world wondered where the next attack would come. Noble men and women in uniform who were willing to risk, and even sacrifice, their lives to protect America, Her people, and Her way of life, stood horrified and angry. Somehow, the enemy had gotten past them, and brought the battle and the blood to the peaceful streets of home.

The American sense of invincibility and isolation from the world’s violence was gone. For the first time in almost two hundred years, an act of violence on the level of an act of war was carried out against the Continental United States. Our planes, our safest and fastest form of transportation had been used as weapons of mass destruction against our people, our economy, and out military.

Our people were slaughtered, regardless of race, creed, or color. Muslims (in the towers, not the terrorists) Christians, Jews, and those who believe in no god at all, were burnt shattered and crushed.

So on the morning of September 12th, 2001, The day after the most horrific act of terror committed in modern history, America woke up. We had a lot of uncertainties, but there was one thing certain, United, in the collective minds of Americans. We’d been hurt, but we would NEVER, NEVER, be defeated. On September 12th, we were not Republicans and Democrats, we were not African-Americans, or Asian-Americans, or even European-Americans, we were just Americans. Regardless of race, gender, religion, political affiliation, or any other dividing factor, we were Brothers and Sisters, we were Americans.

As we look back over these past ten years, a lot has changed. There isn’t an overwhelming feeling of unity in the United States. We’ve become divided and divisive again. But we have the right to be so. Our Nation, our Constitution, our Freedoms guarantee us those rights.  Even so, United We Stand, Divided We Fall.

"We must all hang together, or assuredly we shall all hang separately” –Benjamin Franklin

Remember the unity we felt as a nation on September 12th, 2001, and feel that unity again. Reach out to your neighbor; greet a stranger with a smile; visit an old friend; tear down a wall; build again a burnt bridge. We are all Americans, and we all bear the same wound.

Through blurred eyes we find the strength and courage to soar beyond the moment.
We look to the future knowing we can never forget the past.
God Bless America
Greenwood Cemetery
York, Nebraska 

No words, from tongue or pen, can describe the sorrow, the pain, or the loss. They cannot give adequate tribute to the innocent dead in the Towers and the Pentagon, or give sufficient eulogy to the noble men and women of Flight United 93.

The best we can do is Remember.


Remember the Fallen:

In the North Tower and on American Airlines Flight 11; 8:46 a.m. & 10:28 a.m.

In the South Tower and on United Airlines Flight 175; 9:03 a.m. & 9:59 a.m.

In the Pentagon and on American Airlines Flight 77; 9:37 a.m.

On United Airlines Flight 93; 10:03 a.m.


Remember the Soldiers who have died in defense of our Freedoms, whether or not you believe their war was just.


Remember the Heroes:

The Firefighters and the Police Officers.

Men like Pablo Ortiz and Frank DeMartini, men who went up to make sure others could go down.

Men like Orio Palmer and Ronald Bucca, firefighters who raced the 78th floor of the South Tower without any regard for personal safety.

Remember the sons and daughters, almost too young to remember, who now grow up without a mother or a father.


Remember the Fallen. Remember the Survivors.


Remember 9/11- Never Forget.

 
God Bless America.







Thursday, June 30, 2011

Rescue the One

From the mouthpiece of God
Comes the prophetic call.
Be we weak, be we strong,
It comes to us all.
To Rescue the One,
One by one.

There are those who have wandered
From the light that they knew,
Now they wait in the dark
To be rescued by you.
So Rescue the One,
One by one.

All around us are Souls
Who are kept from the Truth.
They’ve been pulled from the Light
And they need Rescue too.
Let us Rescue the One,
One by one.

Our Brothers! Our Sisters!
Cry out in the night!
It’s up to you and to me
To bring them into the Light.
We must Rescue the One,
One by one.

With the Lord as our Captain
We will strive all our lives
To seek out the weary
And bring hope to their eyes.
So we’ll always Rescue the One,
One by one.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

The Last Journey

By Xander Hacking

I’ve landed at the final shore.
I’ve climbed the final mountain.
I’ve crossed the final shore.
Just a few more steps to go.

I’ve been through tempests,
Where I thought I’d surely drown.
Sat in fear as the storms grew worse.
Then he said, “Fear not, the storm will pass us by.”

I’ve been thrown against the rocks,
Slammed into stone cliffs as I climbed,
Slipped and fallen on the path.
He’d lift me when I fell, and said “Let’s go, almost there.”

I’ve stared in despair at the river,
As the wide weak bridges fell with countless on them.
Leaving one, narrow, and made of rope.
“Come” he said, “Follow me” as he took the first step.

Now I stand in the snow before the door.
I look back at all I’ve been through,
The pond, the hill, the stream.
And I wonder, have I the right to enter?

Then the door opens,
A wave of light and warmth washes over me.
My Lord, Savior, and Brother fills the doorway.
“Come, enter in” he says, face beaming with love, “You’ve a place here.”

Monday, March 7, 2011

Forgotten Skies, Chapter 1.2

            Loud, angry yells from the hallway, though muffled by the closed door, still rudely wakened James Brennan. He only required seconds to recognize that he was in unfamiliar surroundings. He jumped out of his bed and silently approached the door, which resembled a watertight door from a ship, but much thinner, and taller, with a pointed top as opposed to rounded. When he’d gone to sleep the night before he hadn’t been wearing his Army Combat Uniform, but he was now, in addition to a Colt M9 handgun on his waist. He pulled the sidearm out, and released the safety as he leaned his head towards the port-hole style door to his room.
            In the hall two men were yelling and throwing punches at each other. One was about a foot taller than the man he was beating on, and seemed far more worked up. James decided he’d better break things up before they got any more violent.
            Holstering his sidearm, but keeping his hand on it, he pulled the door open and charged into the hallway.
            “HEY! Break it up!” he bellowed.
            The two fighters didn’t seem to hear him as the taller one slammed his opponent into the wall, lifting him off his feet.
            “Break it up!” James ordered again, this time shoving both men, hard, away from one another.
            The two men seemed stunned for a moment with the addition of another person, but the big man reacted quickly and charged towards James, head lowered like he was attempting a football tackle. James ducked around the tackle, a hard feat in the relatively narrow hallway, and then kicked his assailant, throwing him off balance. The man fell to the ground, as James pulled his side arm out again.
            “Don’t move!” He ordered, and then glanced back at the other man. He had collapsed to the floor, and was holding his hand to his bleeding nose.”
            “Of course!” The bigger man yelled, “Of course the military is behind this! Where am I?!”
            “Actually, I’m just as lost as you are. I just woke up, and I’ve got no idea where we are.
            “What?! Great, another useless idiot.”
“Why did you attack him?” James asked, gesturing to the smaller man.
            The man shrugged before responding, calming down, “I figured he knew where we were. When he didn’t tell me, I decided to beat it out of him.”
            “Right.” James turned to the crumpled man on the ground “Do you know where we are?”
            “No!” he barked back.
            Returning to the big man, who was now noticeably calmer, James asked “What’s your name?”
            “Zach, Zach Walker. I’m a quarterback at my community college.” He stuck his hand out, now noticeably calmer than before. James holstered his sidearm, locked the clasp and shook the Zach’s hand.
            “How about you?” James asked the other man.
            “Ed Drake.” He seethed, a mix of despair and frustration in his eyes.
            “And I’m James Brennan. Now that we all know each other, how about we figure out where we are?”
            “Forget it. I’m going back to my bed, this is all just some dumb trip.” Ed mumbled, climbing to his unsteady feet and stumbling into one of the other bedrooms in the hallway.
            “How about you Zach?”
            “Sure, I’ve got a party to get to tonight, let’s get out of here.”
            “Follow me then.”
            James un-holstered his handgun once again, and pointed it at the ground. The hallway towards where Ed had gone ended in a solid wall some twenty feet distant, so they headed the other way. A few exposed pipes ran along the edges of the ceiling. James noticed that the carpet beneath their feet was heavily worn, and steel plating was visible in several spots. It appeared that the wall had been painted at one point, but that had worn off long ago.
            A set of steep stairs, almost to the point of being a ladder, appeared to their left. James held up his hand to signal Zach to stop, but he didn’t get the message and bumped into James.
            “Hey!” James whispered intensely, “This,” he put his hand up again, “means stop!”
            “Well so-rry!”
            “Keep it quiet.” I’m going up these steps for a minute, watch the hallway.”
            James slowly climbed the ladder stairs and lifted his head barely above the floor of the next level up. He had to climb up onto the floor and poke his head out into the corridor, in order to see anything besides the alcove where the ladder came up. There was another ladder behind him, ascending to the next level.
            Poking his head down the hallway, he didn’t see anything of interest, just more doors. The lighting wasn’t very good with dull lights spaced every twenty feet or so. From what he could see, this level looked better kept, though there wasn’t any carpet, and the walls were a dull metallic gray.
            He stepped into the hallway to get a better look, but jumped back when more lights along the corridor lit up. He waited a moment but heard nothing and took another look down the corridor. Nothing was moving. Perhaps the lights were on motion sensors.
            Deciding that he and Zach would come back up after they cleared the first floor, he went back down the ladder.
            “What did you see?” Zach asked, again a little too loud for James’ desire to remain stealthy.
            “Just another corridor. Let’s clear this level first.”
            “Shouldn’t we go up?” Zach protested, maybe we’re underground.”
            “We don’t know that. Let’s see if we can find a window or a level marker first.”
            A few feet beyond the stairs they found another door in the side of the corridor. Zach looked in the window first.
            “Hey! It’s some of my buddies!” Zach yelled as he turned the wheel on the door and lifted the latch.
            “Hold it.” James said, but it was already too late. Zach was inside.
            There were four sets of bunks in the room, arranged around the walls with an open area in the center of the room, but only two of the beds were occupied. The two sleeping men were both soon awake with Zach’s violent shaking.
            “Jake! Tyler! Get up!”
            The men were understandably disoriented, but Zach quickly explained everything they knew thus far, and within a minute or so, they were ready to move. Zach introduced Jake and Tyler as two of the biggest linemen from Zach’s football team. They were big men.
            Now there were four, and James quickly figured out that the two new guys were as incapable of stealth as their quarterback.
            The corridor ended with another one of the ship-style doors. Looking through, James only saw another corridor, with a similar door at the end. They opened the door and proceeded through. Again there were bedrooms lining the hallway, though these rooms were considerably nicer. Each had its own queen sized bed, along with other furniture. Some had occupants, others did not. They didn’t awaken anyone else, and quickly moved through to the end of the corridor. Again James checked through the porthole before opening the door. At first he saw nothing, only black. As his eyes adjusted though, he saw distant, small points of light.
            “Looks like you were wrong about our being underground Zach. I see stars.”
            James opened the door, and the four men moved insider. James was more cautious, and looked around to get a better picture of the room, while the three football players bolted straight for the window.
            “Hey James,” Zach said, sounding in shock, “Come take a look.”
            James moved over, and his jaw dropped. Of all they places he’d been considering, it hadn’t occurred to him that they would be in space.
            “I didn’t get an A in geography,” Zach began, “But none of that land looks like earth.”
            James came to the same conclusion. None of the continents on the planet below looked anything like the continents of earth.
            Just then, James noticed movement out of the corner of his eyes. Turning towards his left, he saw a woman, also staring out the window in apparent shock because she seemed to not notice the four men who had joined her in the room.  

Thursday, January 20, 2011

THE OTHER SIDE

How many times have you heard the phrase “The grass is always greener on the other side?” The intended meaning is that although some thing or some situation seems better from the outside than what you have now, it actually isn’t. This is literally true in the case of grass. Often the grass on the other side of the fence looks greener because you are looking at it from an angle, and see only the green blades of grass. When you look directly down at grass, you see the brown dirt between the blades. In some cases of homeowner vanity this can lead to expensive and costly “lawn-care-wars.” (You want to know the real reason Hitler invaded Poland? It wasn’t polish dogs…)

But is this always true? That things look better than they actually are? Of course not! All generalizations are false! (including this one >:)  )  Another question: is it bad to want to be on The Other Side? Well… yes and no, it depends on the side really, and your motivation. Where is the line between coveting and lust, and righteous motivation and drive?

The teenager in the stands at a high school football game who wishes he was on The Other Side of the game, playing not watching. The moviegoer who wishes she was on The Other Side of Hollywood’s silver screen. The drug addict who wishes he was on The Other Side of controlling his life. The loyal soldier, who despite fulfilling his duty in the battlefield, still wishes he was on The Other Side of the ocean.

Is it bad to want to be on The Other Side of an executive’s desk and paycheck? Well… yes and no, it depends on why you want to be there. Do you want money and power? Or do you want the opportunity to make a difference and provide for your family and others? Or are you in the bothersome mental quandary where your choice would be “C all of the above?”

In case you haven’t figured it out, I’m not actually going to give any resolution to these dilemmas. You honestly expect a quick-fix solution to your decision making problems in such a short essay? No,  I’d need another 50 pages, several weeks, and a generous supply of sugar to give you that. Plus, it really depends on the situation, the people involved, what they want, and why they want it. Most importantly, it depends on Heavenly Father’s will.




So sit back for a few minutes. What do you want to be on The Other Side of? What Other Sides have become your goals, intentionally or otherwise?




I’ll share a few of my own. I recently went in for a job interview. One day, I’ll be on The Other Side of one of those. Often when I watch a play, I wish I was on The Other Side of the production, knowing how fun it is to be cast rather than audience; to entertain than be entertained. I often wish to be on The Other Side of the uniform, a citizen-soldier. I can’t wait to be on The Other Side of a college degree, but then I’ll be on this side of those interviews again, dang it.



What are your Other Sides? How are you going to get there? And should you even go?

Friday, January 14, 2011

Beginnings and Endings

            I still remember when I first arrived in Jakarta, at 1:30 in the afternoon on Wednesday October 22, 2008. It was a definite culture shock. I felt like I was swimming in a mixture of the liquid air and my own sweat. I was definitely a little homesick as my MTC companion, Elder Myers, and I walked out of the airport, only to be greeted not by the Mission President, but by the office Elders: Elder Erikson, Elder Simmons, and Elder Woodland. President Marchant was away on a mission tour with a member of the Area Presidency.
            Things were so different and strange from what I was accustomed too; even the cars drove on the wrong side of the road! I distinctly remember riding down the crowded road from the Soekarno-Hatta airport into Jakarta proper, looking out the window at the workmen, their clothes matching the mud and dirt they worked in, building a causeway several feet higher than the road we were on. One of the missionaries explained it was because of flooding.
            After brother Bono, the driver, navigated us through the motorcycle-filled roads of Jakarta we arrived at the Mission Home. A momentary rest and then we rode a Bajai (motorcycle rickshaw) to Blok M to look for proselyting bags. Blok M is also one of the largest bus terminals in southern Jakarta. Hundreds of buses (Not a single one of which could pass an emissions inspection) picking up thousands of people and roaring off into the urban jungle of Jakarta for dozens of different destinations. It was sheer ordered chaos.
            There are several malls at Blok M. A high class mall, Plaza Indonesia, reserved for the wealthier classes of Jakarta, another mall, Blok M Square, filled with stalls that could be rented as shops by vendors and anchored by a Carrefour, one of Indonesia’s major superstore chains, and another flea-market style mall, Mal Blok M, built underneath and into the bus terminal. It was this third mall we went too. As we descended the steps, the low-tech PA system of the mall was playing a song by Secondhand Serenade. This didn’t help the homesickness at all because my sister and I went to a Secondhand Serenade concert right before I left. I remember my own confusion at the mass of people, all speaking a language I thought I understood. We wandered through not finding anything and then moved on to Plaza Indonesia. Eventually we were able to find bags for Elder Myers and I. I handed over one of the bills that I didn’t understand and walked out with what would become my constant companion for the coming months, a small side bag for carrying books.
            We rode one of those crazy busses, filled with people well beyond any and all safety limits, from the terminal back to the mission home, stopping on the way to purchase some food from a small shack on the side of the road, a “warung,” called “Bumi Ayu.” The office Elders called it “BYU” as an inside joke. Our food looked like something that had already been eaten, rather than for eating, and was packaged in a sheet of thick brown paper. We took it back to the mission home and dug in. I didn’t eat much, I wasn’t all that hungry, and even if I was, I probably wouldn’t have eaten the  pile of … so-called food in front of me. I went to sleep exhausted, mentally, physically, and emotionally that night. Could I be any farther from home?
-           -           -
            I still remember a month before I returned to the U.S. when President Groberg walked into the mission office, where I was serving, and said “Meet the new Elders.” Elder Taggart and Elder Quinn then walked into the office, looking as green and shell shocked as I must have. After they had a little time to take a shower and change from long sleeve to short sleeve shirts, My companion, Elder Silalahi, and I took them out to exchange their American currency for Indonesian cash. I remember watching the exchanger count the bills for us, each pink, purple, blue, or tan bill more familiar to me than their American counterpart.
            We walked for a bit, and bought some “Gorengan,” Indonesian snacks consisting of bananas, tofu, soybeans, and other things deep fried. I loved the stuff, ate it daily. Then we boarded a Kopaja, one of the short busses that fill and flow through the streets of Jakarta like water in the crevices of a massive, cracked boulder, and roared through the lighter early evening traffic to Blok M. The busses in Jakarta rarely stopped, they just slowed down and then you jumped.  
            I remember guiding them artfully through the stalls and chaos of the underground Blok M mall, straight to the bag store where I’d gone on my first day in Jakarta so long before. Though I’d purchased my bag at a store in Plaza Indonesia, we were still able to find some good bags for the Elders. We took them to a floor in Plaza Indonesia where they had thousands of Indonesian traditional crafts, and traditional clothing and fabric, just to give them a taste of what to look out of during their next two years in the country.
            I remember haggling with the Bajai driver, in fluent Indonesian, to give us a ride back to the Mission Home. You could only fit two or three passengers in one of those, so my companion and I split up in two of them, each of us taking one of the new Elders. It was kind of a race. I smile when I remember that I got back first.
            We had dinner with the mission president that night, but the next day my companion and I introduced Elder Taggart to Indonesian cuisine, thought I don’t remember if we got him a “warung” lunch at BYU or Nasi Goreng (Fried Rice). I usually had BYU for lunch, and then Nasi Goreng for dinner. After that the three of us boarded the Busway, Jakarta’s mass transport system, to take Elder Taggart to North Jakarta, his first area. I’d spent eight months of my mission in Jakarta; I’d come to see it as MY city, and I knew how to navigate Busway better than any other American in the mission. North Jakarta had been my first area, and taking Elder Taggart there was a nostalgic trip to a part of my past filled with both good and bad memories.
            I remember a few weeks later, when I waved good bye to the Mission Home, a place that had become Home to me. Elder Myers and I waved good bye to President and Sister Groberg, to the Senior Couple, and to our companions as we climbed into the SUV, driven by Ari, the Mission President’s driver. I still remember looking out the windows as we drove through the streets of Jakarta. I saw the malls and streets where I’d proselyted. We drove past Busway. I can still remember the recorded bilingual announcement before each stop, and how funny the English translation was. It was early morning, so the streets were mostly empty. We sped along the causeway, now completed, to the airport.
            I still remember watching the towering skyscrapers of MY city, what had become my home, disappear; and after two years of looking forward to returning to the US, I found myself homesick for Jakarta.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Forgotten Skies, Chapter 1.1


Chapter 1.1


            The first thing Samantha Cooper noticed as she woke up was the smell. Despite being only half conscious, she still recognized that the musty, metallic smell in the air was far different than the rose-scented air freshener in the Sacramento apartment she shared with her two children. Waking up in an unfamiliar environment causes confusion, and her confusion only increased when she opened her eyes.
            She bolted up with a start and let out a short cry of shock. She was most definitely NOT in her apartment, and she had no idea where she was. The walls of the room were a dull metallic gray, and besides the small bed she was on, the only furniture was a writing desk with a lit lamp, and a dresser. Even the door across from the foot of her bed was foreign. Made of a dull metal, the only knob she could see was a hand wheel in the center of the door.
            She threw back the blanket and was even more disconcerted to discover that she was not wearing the sky-blue nightgown she’d put on the night before. Instead she wore a dark green jumpsuit. She didn’t want to think about how her clothes had changed, or who had changed them.
            The thudding of her racing heart beat almost drowned out her own thoughts as she fought back the panic attack that she could feel coming on.

            “Hello!”

            Her voice sounded unnaturally loud to her ears. No answer came.
            Hesitantly she stood up, the sharp cold of the metal floor biting into her feet. She approached the door, and reached for the wheel, half expecting to find it locked. She jumped back, startled, as the sound of gears whirring accompanied the door disappearing into the wall.
            She stepped out cautiously into a long hallway. The atmosphere was similar to her room. It smelled musty, and although she couldn’t see any exposed pipes or wiring, it felt like she was in some sort of factory. The walls were gray and dark green metal, and had obviously been designed for function over form. Despite the eerie atmosphere, the hallway was well lit and appeared to be around a hundred feet long, ending in a door similar to the one she’d just passed through, minus the wheel.

            “Hello?” she called out again, slowly walking towards the end of the hall, “Any one there?”

            Samantha started as the door closed behind her. The noise hadn’t truly been that loud, but nervous as she was, it sounded like an explosion in the silent corridor, echoing off the walls. She ran back to the door, and it opened once more. Experimenting, she stepped back a few paces and the door closed again.
            Satisfied that the way behind her was not closed off, not that there was much in the room she had left, she turned again and continued down the hallway. Several identical doors lined both sides of the highway, but none of them opened for her like the first one.
            As she approached the final door at the end of the hallway, she flinched again as it opened for her. She passed through the doorway. This room was larger than the one where she’d awoken, it was darker too. Some of the light from the hallway seeped in, illuminating a small area of the room. Her first impression was of how different this room was from what she’d seen so far. Light blue carpet covered the floor, and there were several tables, chairs, and couches. Then she saw the far wall, or rather window. She hadn’t noticed the floor to ceiling window before, because the dark night sky matched the darkness of the room.
            Excited at the prospect of looking outside, and possibly figuring out where she was, she raced to the window, then stopped suddenly. She couldn’t breathe. She could feel her heart pounding so hard it almost hurt, but still she couldn’t breathe. It wasn’t the night sky. The stars shone brightly, without twinkling, as though there was atmosphere. And there wasn’t. Looking out the window, she saw a planet below, but none of the landmasses looked anything like Earth. 

Thursday, December 9, 2010

"Awakening"

This is a piece I wrote for a creative writing class. It is also a conceptual back story for a novel I am working on. Go ahead and comment if you like it.


"AWAKENING"
(C) 2010 D.A. Hacking


Darkness. But as consciousness returned and his eyes opened; the light blinded him with sharp pain. Once the pain dissipated and his pupils dilated, he sat up and analyzed the room around him. The room, about fourteen feet square, was spartan, void of any furniture or adornment other than the olive green military cot that he was lying on,a generic folding metal chair sitting beside it, and two mirrors occupied the wall on either side of the bed. He saw himself, a self who appeared…both familiar and foreign. His brown hair was cropped short, almost to the point of being buzzed. He wore a tight gray short sleeved t-shirt and grey shorts that went to his knees. The muscles on his arms and legs were pronounced. Opposite the chair was a metal door with no window.
            Focusing a little more on the mirrors, he could faintly see the outline of three people. Instinctively he knew they were two way mirrors and that he was being watched. Somehow he also knew that he shouldn’t be able to see them. Two way mirrors were only supposed to let the observers see in, not the observed see out.
            His legs itched. Investigating, he found an eight inch scar along the back of his right calf, a surgical scar. A quick check revealed the same thing on his left calf. He didn’t remember how he got them, or how he knew they were surgical scars. This did not concern him though; he merely accepted the situation as it was.
            He heard footsteps, and was not surprised to see the door across from him open. A man entered, wearing a white lab coat and using a cane. He was about five feet nine inches, roughly a hundred and seventy pounds; his hair was thinning, and he smelled faintly of lemon hand sanitizer. The man on the cot immediately, and almost subconsciously, calculated thirteen different ways to disable the scientist without killing him and escape the room.
            “Good morning,” the man in the lab coat greeted him, a slight German accent in his voice, “how are you?”
            “My state is acceptable; however this body will require sustenance within three hours to maintain optimum performance.” The man on the cot reported.
            “Good, good. Do you know my name?” The man in the lab coat sat down in the chair as he asked.
            “Doctor Hans Schovak.” The man just knew this, as a man knows how to breathe.
            “Yes, yes. What can you remember?”
            A quick response, “Nothing. This unit remembers nothing.”
            “I see.” Dr. Schovak had a contemplative look on his face. “I’m afraid I have some bad news.” He waited, seemingly for a response from the man in the bed.
            “Information, no matter the nature, allows further understanding of a situation.”
            “I see.” Dr. Schovak breathed deeply before continuing. “You were part of a military experiment, conducted by the Imperial States of America. They,” he paused, choosing his words, “are an oppressive empire, intent on conquering the earth. They wanted to create brainwashed, genetically engineered soldiers in order to enslave their enemies. They were attempting genocide, and you were to be one of their greatest tools. They tried to destroy your individuality, your memories, your identity, and ‘build’ you into the perfect soldier. Those scars,” he said, pointing at the man’s legs, “are the results of operations on your legs to make them stronger and faster. We were able to capture one of their research stations. You and several others were there. Over the past few months, my team and I have tried to ‘reconstruct’ your mind. Sadly it doesn’t appear that we have made much progress. Tell me, do you remember your name?”
            “No.”
            “Does this concern you?”
            “No.”
            “What do you feel?”
            “Nothing.”
            Dr. Schovak shook his head in seeming defeat.
            “I am sorry. I’m so sorry they did this to you. Because of the damage they did to your mind, you are unable to feel any powerful emotions, or even dream. You probably never will.” He paused, considering his next words carefully, “I have a proposition for you. We are still fighting this enemy. They are oppressing their people, experimenting on them, destroying them as they did with you. Sadly, most don’t even survive the process. These…deranged scientists have more research labs. If we could capture information from those labs, we could help you and the others like you, and stop this abomination from continuing. Will you help us?”
            “That would seem to be an acceptable course of action, based upon the information you have presented.”
            Dr. Schovak was visibly relieved as he stood.
            “Good, good. You will need some more rest, I think. Sleep well and I will see you in the morning.”
            Dr. Schovak left the room. The man lay back down on his cot. The temperature of the room was perfect, such that he didn’t need a blanket.
            Just as consciousness was about to leave him, two things flashed in his mind: the first, the image of a woman’s face, petite, narrow and framed with shoulder-length brown hair, green eyes accentuating her smile. The second was a question.
            “What is my name?”
            Then he felt something, some emotion; he didn’t know what it was, but he didn’t like it. It made him feel weak.
=          =          =
            The next morning, the man was assembled with four others like him. No names, no memory. They wore gray jumpsuit uniforms, provided by Dr. Schovak’s aids. On each uniform over their left breast was their designation: Echo 1, Echo 2, Echo 3, and the man had been given Echo 4.
            Echo 4 bore no thoughts of the woman he’d seen in his mind the night before. His mind had dismissed it as an anomaly of his conditioning.
            The warehouse sized building they were in was in the same connected complex of buildings as their sleeping quarters. They had yet to see the sun. A mock village made of a half dozen small wood and steel buildings filled one half of the warehouse. An open area at one end of the warehouse was separated from the village by a chain link fence. The four men stood at attention a dozen paces in front of a wall of lockers. They hadn’t said a word to one another. They had donned their uniforms and waited at their station, as they’d been ordered by Dr. Schovak’s aides. They had been there almost an hour, statue-like.
            A door behind them opened, but none of the four turned to see who was entering. Echo 4 heard the approaching steps and assessed them. Two men, one slightly heavier than the other. One walked ahead of the other, the second man limped slightly, and he could hear the thud of a rubber stopper on the ground, a cane. He was not surprised to see Dr. Schovak step in front of him and the others, along with another man, a soldier. Somehow Echo 4 knew that the insignia on the man’s chest designated him as a Colonel.
            Dr. Schovak spoke first “Hello men. I hope you slept well, and I apologize that we kept you waiting. This is Colonel Thomas. He’ll be assessing your…abilities today. The enemy trained and engineered you to be super-soldiers. We want to see the result of that training so that we know how you can best help us to stop them.”
            Dr Schovak stepped back, and Colonel Thomas cleared his voice. “You are Echo team, the fifth team we have organized of men like you. There are stun rifles in the lockers behind you. There are fifteen of my best men in the village before you. Capture the village by raising a blue flag in the place of the red one at the town center, and neutralize all fifteen of my men. Proceed.”
            As one, the four men stepped back, and turned to the lockers. As one, they opened the lockers and removed the rifles inside. They were identical to common assault rifles, but on the tip of each barrel was a glowing blue half-sphere which Echo 4 recognized as a training stun attachment. When fired, it would discharge a small sphere of energy that would temporarily immobilize any biological target it hit.
            The four men moved swiftly through the village. Their abilities were apparent as they took fifteen feet jumps across alleyways, took accurate shots while running, heard their enemies around corners, and other abilities far beyond those of a normal human. They swiftly and efficiently cleared the village and soon closed in on the three-story town center.
            They’d already eliminated twelve of the village defenders, leaving three to guard the town center. Two men popped above the parapet and filled the air with automatic stun-rifle fire. Even those two didn’t last very long. That left only one man inside the building. Something bothered Echo 4. At first his mind dismissed the emotion, but then it began looking for the source of the anxiety. It didn’t make sense tactically for the third man to be alone inside the building while the other two were on the roof.
            Unless there were more than fifteen of the village defenders.
             Echo 1 and Echo 2 were charging the front door of the town center. Echo 4 yelled a warning to them and jumped down from his building to the street, when a wall of blue spheres exploded from the front door. Echo 2 was hit, and fell. Echo 1 was able to dodge the incoming fire long enough to find cover in a doorway.
            Echo 4 zeroed his rifle sights on the two men inside the door, and dropped both, then charged. As he neared the building, rather than going in the door, he used his engineered legs and jumped to a second-story window ledge, then to the third floor ledge, and then jumped again. Catching the edge of the roof with his hands, he pulled himself up. He caught movement from the stairway; it was Echo 1, having cleared the stairwell from the ground floor. Echo 3 soon joined them, having jumped from an adjacent three-story building.
            They formed a triangle, each man eight feet apart from the other two, and advanced towards the flag, watching all directions. When they arrived at the flag, Echo 1 broke formation to exchange the flag, while Echo 3 and Echo 4 continued to watch. Echo 1 lowered the red flag and threw it to the ground. He removed the blue flag from a pocket in his jumpsuit, and began raising it on the pole.
            As soon as the blue flag reached the top of the flag pole, an alarm sounded, a short sharp blast. Then the voice of Colonel Thomas sounded over a loudspeaker.
            “Return to your staging area.”
            The three men jumped their way down the face of the building, jumping from the roof to the third story, then down to the ground. Echo 3 lifted Echo 2’s immobilized body over his shoulder, and the team ran down the main boulevard towards their starting point. Moments later, they were standing at attention again, with Echo 2 lying behind them, as Colonel Thomas addressed them.
            “Impressive. You took down eighteen men and captured the village in three minutes and forty-seven seconds. How does that make each of you feel?”
            Echo 1 responded first, “Echo 1 has determined that this team’s performance was acceptable.”
            “Only acceptable?”
            “We failed to anticipate an underestimation in the report of the enemy’s strength.”
            “Echo 4.” Colonel Thomas turned to face Echo 4, “What is your assessment?”
            “Echo 4 has determined that this team’s performance was acceptable.”
            “You knew there were more soldiers.”
            “Affirmative. I determined that there was a 93% probability of additional enemy forces based upon their tactics in defending the town center.”
            “Why were you able to do so when Echo 2 was not?”
            “Echo 4 does not know sir.”
            “Interesting. You are dismissed.”
            By now Echo 2 was stirring, the effects of the stun wearing off, and he, along with the other three members of Echo team followed one of Dr. Schovak’s aides to a dormitory that had been provided for them.
            As he lay in his bunk, Echo 4 crossed through the line between consciousness and sleep. At the last moment before he slipped away, the woman’s face flashed into his mind again. This time she was standing in a field wearing a blue dress.
=          =          =
            The four men of Echo team scanned the ground, several hundred feet below them, as their helicopter flew forward. Foxtrot, another team of Reach, flew in another helicopter behind them. It was early fall in what used to be the Mid-western United States, the former state of Colorado, to be exact. The trees on the ground were ablaze with yellow and orange. Almost a year had passed since their “awakening,” which they’d passed carrying out covert missions against the ISA and raiding labs that contained information on the Reach. This was the third such station they would be raiding. It was guarded by remnants of the Army of the Imperial States of America.
            Dr. Schovak said that it was the ISA who had taken Echo Team’s humanity from them. Now the four men of Echo Team, and others like them, were loyal agents of the Hassaran Empire, the nation for which Dr Schovak worked. They were call the Emperor’s Reach, and were the empire’s most powerful and versatile soldiers, an organization composed almost entirely of rescued victims of the ISA’s research, all of them unshakably loyal to Emperor Hassar, and to Dr. Schovak.
            A battalion of standard Hassaran troops had already arrived and secured the perimeter of the research base. With the Hassaran Air Force providing cover, the surface portion of the base was theirs. What was left of the ISA defense force was holed up in a pair of deep underground structures, converted from old missile silos. Echo and Foxtrot Teams would enter those silos and capture the researchers along with any information they could. The Empire’s intelligence wing had indicated that the base had information on the Reach, possibly a way to heal the damaged minds of the Reach.
            Echo 4 could see the base as their transport closed in. A small cluster of buildings on the eastern edge of the base were smoking, while newer temporary structures had been erected by the Hassaran troops to the west. Two bunkers, marking the entrances to the silos were on the north and south. A space had been cleared in the middle of the base, large enough for helicopters to land.
            As the helicopter descended, Echo 4 rose and stood in the doorway, grasping a strap above his head for balance. The setting sun glinted off of the copper-chrome visor of his combat helmet, strong enough to stop even an armor piercing round. Each of the Reach Agents wore their black assault jumpsuit. The suits had Kevlar armor sewn into them, wicked away sweat to keep them dry, dissipated their heat signatures, and were designed to increase their blood flow. In addition, the red trim and lack of any markings, other than a small silver insignia of an open palmed hand over the left breast, the insignia of a Reach.
            The ground closed in, the helicopter throwing a cloud of dust into the faces of the army regulars. Echo team stepped off the helicopter. As they walked, Echo 4 looked from behind his shaded visor at the soldiers around them. Only a few of their jaws were dropped, but awe was in every man’s eyes. Dr Schovak had explained to Echo 4 that he couldn’t feel powerful emotions, like pride; yet as he walked through the crowd of men, Echo 4 felt what could only be described as pride. These men saw his Reach Agent uniform, they knew who he was, and this pleased him.
            A uniformed man, a Major, approached Echo Team, with Foxtrot Team behind them. The Major was a little over five foot six, and carried himself with confidence. His black hair was cut just a little shorter than regulation, and Echo 4’s sharper-than-human eyesight could identify minute flecks of gray within the black. According to the command cycle, Echo 4 was the ranking Reach Agent for this mission, so he stepped forward to the Major.
            “Reach Teams Echo and Foxtrot checking in for Operation Anthill.”
            “Welcome, Echo and Foxtrot.”
             Echo 4 could smell the man’s increased perspiration, and could faintly hear the man’s heart speeding up. Even as a Major, he was nervous around the Reach. To his credit, he hid it well, no wavering in his voice or shaking of his frame.
            “We have already secured the entrances to the two former missile silos that the ISA scientists are using for labs. We are ready to provide whatever support you require.”
            “We have already determined their strengths and likely tactics. We will require no support. We are ready to proceed now. You are dismissed.”
            Although they held no official rank, Reach Agents “outranked” all other soldiers in the Empire other than Generals. By Imperial decree, any order given by a Reach was to be treated as if from the Emperor himself.
            The Major saluted, and stepped away. Echo 4 now turned his attention to his Reach Teams.
            “Echo will secure the southern silo. Foxtrot, the northern.”
            In unison, the eight Reach Agents nodded in acknowledgement and proceeded to their targets.
            The southern silo had thirty floors. In fifteen minutes they had cleared the first ten, acting as a team of four, easily dispatching the dozen or so ISA soldiers they’d encountered. On the tenth floor, in order to proceed faster they had separated into two teams, leap-frogging floors. Echo 4 and Echo 1 were on floor fifteen, with Echo 2 and Echo 3 on the floor above them. They had encountered more resistance on this floor than any other, but were now moving towards the final room. From the schematics they had accessed in an office they had cleared moments before, this final room, a large lab, occupied a fourth of the floor.
            The door was open. Echo 4 held up four fingers, and signed an “A,” informing Echo 1 of the entry tactic they would use. They took their positions on either side of the door. On the count, Echo 4 dove through the doorway, and Echo 1 followed directly behind. The room was dark, the glow of several computer monitors present, but before Echo 4 could further assess the room, he heard a grunt, followed by Echo 1’s body hitting the floor. He turned in time to see tendrils of electricity from a stun blast fading from Echo 1’s body, and then a flash as he himself was hit with a shot from a security camera in the hallway outside, a disguised stun gun. Even as his consciousness faded, Echo 4 assessed how he and Echo 1 had been defeated and developed strategies to avoid such a failure in the future. Then, at the final moment before he lost all consciousness, a sharp blast of fear hit Echo 4, and the face of the woman flashed in his vision.

            Echo 4 stirred, and his mind immediately began registering all sensory data. The number of heartbeats in the quiet room, the smell of the concrete and steel, the humidity, the coldness of the metal restraints on his arms. Even as it did so, his mind also dismissed the woman’s face as an anomaly from his conditioning, just as he had every night for the past year. With that dismissal, his curiosity was suppressed.
            His eyes opened and quickly adjusted to the dim lighting in the room. Judging from the abundant computer screens, and the size, it was most likely the same room he and Echo 1 had been entering when they were stunned. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Echo 1 slumped over in a metal chair next to him, heavily restrained, just as Echo 4 was. His helmet was on the floor, at the feet of three men who stood in front of him. Two were armed and wore ISA digital camouflage uniforms. The third wore a scientist’s lab coat. He was about 6 feet tall, similar in height to Echo four. Light blond hair that looked like it hadn’t been combed in at least a week adorned his head. He appeared confident and relaxed as he leaned against a desk with his arms folded.
            Something was familiar about the scientist to Echo 4. Something about his posture, something about his face. Something was slogging through the mists of his forgotten memories, trying to break above the surface, but not quite able to reach.
            “Did they give you a name, Reach?” The scientist asked, his voice flat.
            Echo 4 focused his eyes on the scientist, and blankly stared at him, remaining silent.
            “Hmm… how long have they been using you?”
            Again silence.
            “So you’re just going to be silent, like a good stubborn soldier under interrogation?”
            Finally Echo 4 spoke, “I am not stubborn. I merely can see no benefit of answering your questions.”
            “I don’t know.” He shrugged his shoulders, “Establishing a relationship?”
            “Irrelevant.”
            “Gathering information?”
            Echo 4 tilted his head to the side, and paused for a moment. “Relevant.”
            “Good, then we’ll go with that. My name is Nathan Elliott by the way. We can question each other. We’ll trade off. You can go first.”
            “What research is done in this laboratory?” Echo 4 inquired, his controlled voice void of any hint of fear, or concern, or nervousness, or any emotion at all, though he’d begun to feel several of them.
            “To collect information on the Reach, and to try and find a way to recover their minds.”
            “Intriguing considering the ISA created the mental state of the Reach.” Echo 4 countered.
            Nathan chuckled, and stood up, dropping his hands to his side.
            “That’s exactly what the Empire brainwashed you to believe. There is no “ISA,” the nation your Empire destroyed was the United States of America.”
            “Standard ISA propaganda. I believe it is your turn to state an inquiry.”
            Nathan shook his head, “Right. Would you like to know your name?”
            Echo 4’s training told him that he could not feel curiosity, or strong desire, but he did.
            “Additional information increases my ability to defeat you. Proceed.” He stated, keeping his voice flat, controlled.
            Nathan chuckled again as he turned and typed into the computer behind him. A large projector on the wall in front of Echo 4 activated. After warming up, it displayed a picture that was slightly unnerving to Echo 4. It was his own face, only he was smiling, something foreign to him, and he was wearing glasses.
            “Your name is David Elliott.”
            “Intriguing, that is identical to your last name.”
            Nathan offered a humorless chuckle, “Funny yeah. Here is another picture.”
            The next picture was so shocking to Echo 4, or David, that his emotionless façade was shattered. According to Dr. Schovak, a Reach Agent’s mind was too damaged to dream, but every night Echo 4 dreamed. The dream had developed, and now every night it was the same. It was a woman in a simple blue dress, her short, wavy auburn hair perfectly framing her narrow face, the same woman whose face flashed in his mind every time he lost consciousness. She was standing in a field of green grass and red, blue, and yellow flowers. She was smiling, but her smile slowly changed to a frown; a single tear would roll down her cheek as the field turned to fire, and then she disappeared into the flame, never moving an inch, and Echo 4 would awake. That same woman’s face was now on the screen before him, she was smiling.
            “Who is she?” demanded Echo 4, a hint of panic and confusion in his voice.
            “I suppose it is your turn for a question. Her name is Sarah Elliott. She was your wife.”
            Echo 4 just stared, his mind attempting to process the information before him, and yet failing, having lost so much.  
            “Verify your statements.”
            “Hey, it is my turn for a question.” Nathan countered.           
            “That was a command, not a question.” Echo 4’s eyes were intense, fierce.
            “A little cocky aren’t you? Aim!” The two soldiers aimed their rifles at Echo 4 as Nathan placed a laptop on Echo 4’s lap, and removed the restraint on his left arm.
            Even with only one hand, Echo 4 was able to swiftly navigate the computer. He found mountains of information. Pictures, a marriage certificate, records of his position in the US Army, report of  his M.I.A. status after Washington D.C. fell and the rest of the eastern sea board.
            Echo 1 began to stir.
            Nathan interrupted Echo 4’s searching, “I know my men and I will not leave this place as free men, perhaps not even alive, that is up to you. Consider this information I’ve given you. Use it.” Then Nathan seemed to be speaking to someone deeper inside of Echo 4 as he leaned in, putting his hand on Echo 4’s shoulder, “Break free David. Come back.”
            Nathan stared into Echo 4’s eyes for a moment, then reached his arm into his coat pocket.
            “Take these. They were hers.” Nathan slipped a small envelope into a pocket in Echo 4’s sleeve. “It’s a photograph and a diamond ring.”
            “You can tell your partner that you escaped and incapacitated us.” Nathan nodded to his two soldiers, who removed stun gun attachments from their ammo belt, set them on low stun and shot each other.
            Nathan removed the remainder of Echo 4’s restraints, then aimed a stun pistol at his own chest, and spoke three words before stunning himself.
            “Come home brother.”
            Then it registered to Echo 4 why the man looked so familiar.
            The Something beneath the surface of his hidden memories had risen.
=          =          =
            The last rays of light from the setting sun had disappeared almost an hour ago through the glass wall of Dr. Schovak’s tenth story office. From his window overlooking the Empire’s Capitol city, Hassara, he could see for miles. The night lights of the city of two million people were surprisingly dim. Though the remnants of the American Air Force hadn’t made a successful airstrike against the city in over a year, restrictions still kept the city darker than a city of its size should be. Farther out, beyond the city limits, scattered lights of various farms or small towns were visible for miles.
            But Dr. Schovak wasn’t looking out the window tonight. He was hunched over his computer, staying late in his office in the Reach Headquarters building. It was almost ten o’clock and he still hadn’t finished his report to the Empire’s High Command. Things were going relatively well in the Reach Agent program, but not as well as the High Command wanted; not enough of the test subjects were able to be successfully conditioned.

            David slid down against the wall of the elevator to the floor, clutching his head with his right hand, trying to keep control. His head pounded like the drums of an ancient army. Confusion and pain tore away his strict mental control as powerful emotions thudded into his mind.
            FLASH
            David’s hands were wrinkled from his own sweat. It had taken him a good fifteen minutes to finally pick up the phone, and then he’d misdialed. Sure he had no problem talking with her in history class, but throw a phone in and his courage was out the window.
            *ring*…*ring*…
            ~Hello?~
            “Hey! Sarah…”
            FLASH
            The pain lessened. Echo 4 pulled the small envelope from his shoulder pocket, the source of this loss of control, and opened it. He pulled out the ring. A standard ring used in various marriage customs. A rather small, but impressively well cut diamond was fitted tightly in a silver fitting. Such a simple thing… 
            FLASH
            As nervous as he’d been asking her on that first date, it was nothing compared to how David felt right now. He walked beside Sarah, through a well-kept park. His left hand interlaced with her right, and his right clutching a small box in his pocket. He knew there was no way she didn’t feel the sweat seeping from his hands, but it gave him courage that she didn’t seem to mind. They were talking, sharing the difficulties of their hectic weeks of school and work.
            He stopped, rather abruptly, and told her he had something to ask. Dropping her hand, he took to a knee and pulled his right hand out of his pocket.
            “Sarah…”
            FLASH
            David gasped for breath. The pain momentarily subsided, as confusion rose. A small, black hemisphere on the roof of the elevator caught his attention, a security camera. He couldn’t be seen! He aimed his pistol and fired; the explosion echoing through his head brought a resurgence of the pain.
            FLASH
            David and Sarah sat on a red plaid blanket, fitting perfectly amongst the purples and blues and yellows and greens of the mountain meadow where they were picnicking. It had been a hectic week, and both agreed that they’d needed some time to simply enjoy one another’s company. She was elegant in her blue dress.
            FLASH
            Echo 4 didn’t understand the tears running down his face. He looked at the picture of two people. A man in a black suit, admittedly similar in appearance to Echo 4, and a woman in an ornate and elegant white dress. They were smiling.
            FLASH
            Fighter jets screamed across the sky, spouting flame from under their wings. The smoke of far more than one mid-air explosion filled the sky. The eastern sky glowed with a sickening red color of smoke and fire and a setting sun. It looked like the sky was bleeding.
            David stood a dozen yards in front of his small apartment on a military base twenty minutes from Washington DC. A truck would be along any minute to pick David up, along with the dozen or so other men from his block. He couldn’t take his eyes from the doorway of his apartment. She stood there, worried, but beautiful as ever. He smiled, to reassure her. She laughed, at his unyielding and somewhat annoying optimism. She mouthed David’s three favorite words to hear from her lips, “I love you.”
            A screaming louder than before filled the sky, and it was coming closer. David looked up in time to see the tiny black cylinder, such a small thing, as it flew directly into the block of apartments he’d been facing, into his own apartment.
            Such a small thing, with such big flames.
            FLASH
            Echo 4 didn’t understand the tears running down his face.
            But David did.
           

            Dr. Schovak jumped at the knock on the door. He thought he was the last man on the floor. He reached for the hand gun under his desk, but stopped and chuckled at his own paranoia. Anyone with hostile intent wouldn’t knock on the door.
            “Enter.”
            The door opened, and Echo 4 stepped into the room. He still wore his combat uniform.
            “Ah, Echo 4. I thought Echo team was still on the western front.” As Dr. Schovak spoke, Echo 4 walked over to his desk, and stood before it, in a firm military stance.
            “Echo team returned one hour ago.”
            “How was your mission?”
            “A success, Doctor. We captured the laboratory. The ISA’s resistance was less than anticipated.”
            “Good, good.” Dr. Schovak turned back to his computer and continued to type as he spoke. “Did you recover anything useful?”
            “The captured intelligence will be given to one of your teams for analysis tomorrow morning, but I am hopeful.”
            “Good.” Dr. Schovak said absent mindedly; then he started.
            He said “I.” He said he was “hopeful.”
            Dr. Schovak turned his full attention to Echo 4, placing his hands firmly on the edge of his desk, near the concealed security alert button on the underside.
            “How can I help you tonight Echo 4?”
            “Echo 4 has a question for you.”
            Good, “Echo 4”, perhaps I misheard. I am tired. “What is that, Echo 4?”
            “I want to know my name.”
            Dr. Schovak’s hand tightened, almost imperceptibly, as he pressed the security alert button, even as he continued to speak with Echo 4, nervousness was evident in his voice.
            “W-what do you mean? You are Echo 4.” Dr. Schovak rose from his chair.
            “That is my designation, not my name. Who am I?”
            “What is this Echo 4?”
            Dr. Schovak began to ever so slowly edge towards the door, Echo 4’s eyes remained fixed on him like a hawk.
            “You have given the other Reach Agents and me only designations. No names. Why?
            “B-because we do not know your names. As I’ve said, we rescued you from an ISA lab.”
            Echo 4 moved swiftly, faster than Dr. Schovak could have expected, repositioning himself between Dr. Schovak and the door.
            “There are no ISA Reach labs. We have encountered no ISA soldiers like the Reach. In fact, there is no such thing as the ISA. I did learn something in Colorado.”
            At that point the door opened and security officers poured into the room. Removing the handgun from his waist, David shot two of the officers with his handgun before ducking behind Dr. Schovak’s desk. Using the reflection in the glass behind him he dropped two more officers. There were a good dozen officers in the room, armed with stun guns by now. One of them had a pistol, and used it to shoot out the glass windows; David couldn’t use it anymore as a mirror.
            An officer took a bold attack by diving over the desk and was rewarded. David was panicking slightly and did not anticipate the man as he flew over the desk and fired a stun blast square into David’s chest.
            As he lay there, his vision slowly blackening, Dr Schovak came into his view.
            “My name… is David Elliot.” David breathed.
            The blackness engulfed his vision.
            A flash, Sarah’s face, and then nothing.
=          =          =
            Darkness, but as consciousness returned and his eyes opened, the brightness of the light blinded him with sharp pain. Once the pain subsided and his pupils dilated, he sat up and saw a man in a white lab coat sitting beside his bed in the gray, spartan room.
            “Good morning. How are you?”
            “My state is acceptable.”